I am going to tell you more about myself, I find this a helpful tool this blog, and I need to let these feelings out so that I can heal. I used the word reflecting for a reason, and that reason is because sitting here at my desk makes me think about things that has happened to me in my life. The news of my health today was a little set back for me in the sense of not knowing where my health is going to take me in the weeks or months ahead here. So, I thought that I would sit and reflect on my life the best way I can tell you.
When I was growing up in Racine and living with my mother at the time, I can remember a few good things about her, and one of the things I remember was that we would go downtown to the lighthouse on Lake Michigan and sit there on the bench and look at the water together. I always asked my mother why we came down to the lakeshore and always had to sit and look at the lighthouse and the water. Now bare with me on this, my mother only came down after she was sober enough to drive the car. But this time coming down to the lake was different for me. It was different in the sense of that she was talking normal to me. My mother when she was on drugs or drinking wouldn’t even know I was in the room with her, because she was high on drugs, or to drunk to even speak to me.
But sitting on the bench with her that afternoon I remember one thing my mother taught me as a young child, and that one thing was the word reflect. I asked my mother what that meant to reflect on something. Now I was maybe 9 or 10 at the oldest at this time. But my mother told me that you sometimes have to get away from the evilness of what the world is doing to you. And that you need to reflect on the good things that you have in front of you. I never could ever figure out my mother and her habits and her ways of who she was because there was never enough time to be with her due to working and doing drugs and drinking.
But if I learned one thing that day was that my mother was a real person underneath that darkness that she carried around her all the time. She taught me to reflect from time to time and appreciate the good things that are in front of you. So, I started doing that from time to time in my life experiences. I never thought that it was a good thing to reflect, until I was in a dark spot in my life. But where I am going with this is that I need to stop and listen to the spirit around me. And later I will explain in long detail about what the spirit is and what it has done for me as a human being.
In closing this, I never thought that I was going to be sick with something at this time I have no control over, and I thought I would take the time to talk about reflecting because I need to realize that my life has been blessed beyond measure, and it’s time to share these stories on this blog and to the people around me. For I am not guarantee another sunrise. So, with this said reflect on things that matter the most in your life, even though a lot of us have lived a lot of dark areas in our lives, let your reflections send a light to that darkness and tell you that your better than you ever had been before.