Had to get this off my mind…

I am here to talk about something that I never wanted to share before to anyone in this world, and yet using this site means that the world will know what I am going to share. I need to get this off my chest and I hope that the world will understand me when I try to write this the best way I can here.

I am writing to tell you this afternoon that I am single, and I that I am alone. I have a beautiful daughter and I don’t really have to much other than the simple things that I can do for my daughter. I am putting this message out to the world this evening that maybe God or the angels can bring me someone that will change my life for the better. I don’t want to be alone the rest of my life, and I know that I have baggage here, but then again who doesn’t have any of some sort? But, I am reaching out and throwing the rest of my heart out there to see if maybe that there is a chance of some small miracle.

I don’t believe in luck, I believe that things happen for reasons that we have no control over, and to sit here and share my feelings of loneliness is one of the hardest things I ever done in my life. I mean who comes to a blog site and throw all these feelings down like I do, and take chances like this? I mean I know if I want to go find someone I could use a dating site, or go out to a club or bar, but I am not that type of person. I am the type of person that believes that I will run into her at some point in my life, maybe even right here at this blog. Or maybe I will meet her getting groceries with my daughter, or in a state park. I could go on and on about this, but if you are out there, or if you are reading this at this very moment could you give me some kind of special sign? I mean I am a person that has a lot to offer in this world. And I would love to share the things I know when it comes to things that I can relate to here.

I know this is a long shot, but then again life is about taking chances. I know that if I don’t stick my head out there then I will be gaining nothing from anything. It’s hard to know what is going to happen when I publish this post, but one thing is that I am not scared for a minute.

What made me write this today? Well a couple of things actually. First off, is that I need someone that will listen to me and when it comes to things that we can just take the walk or sit in front of a warm fire and just listen to each other and not fix any problems. It’s just about having that company that you can see in front of you that really cares about you.

Second thing is that love is more than a word that you say at the end of the day or when you wake up, it means that you love a person for who they are, and you love the faults they went through because that is what made you attractive to that person. If everyone was perfect there would be no point of being together, just my thoughts for what they are worth. But love has power to heal, love has power to listen and not fix the problems at hand all the time. Love has the ways of showing that you can get through the days even when they are the hardest. Love means that no matter what you are always connected to the person that you want to be with. I know this is crazy what I all said here in this post, but I had to put this out there because if she is reading this post, I know that she will be feeling the same feelings that I have.

I didn’t want to hide what I feel. I didn’t come to write in this blog to make everything sound so great, I came here to find peace in my heart first off, and secondly I came here to see what the world is doing with itself. So, in closing thank you for taking the time to reading this again. I know sometimes I don’t have the best words to use here, but I have to try at some point. So, I will leave by saying, I hope that maybe the world will bring me that special person sooner than later. And when you do come into my life, I don’t want you to be afraid of me judging you, I want you to be as open as I can when it comes to what is pressing you at the times of your life. Take care of yourself out there and who knows what the evening will bring.

8 thoughts on “Had to get this off my mind…

    1. Waiting can take forever, but then again it worth the wait. Time is what I have, it’s playing it safe, and making sure that I have done everything I could in my mind here. But you do make a great point none the less here…

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    1. I know that you have a lot on your plate. And I wasn’t thinking about anything as you and I go for that matter other then your a great friend so far to me. And if it was meant to be then it will be meant to be in the end. I don’t rush into things at all I take my time and think things over. So, am I glad your in my life no matter what, and like I said either if it goes more it does and if not i truly understand either way. Life is about taking chances and that’s why I’m doing. My health is failing more and more, but I still have faith in God.

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      1. No worries here sorry that you took that the wrong way here. I was just saying thank you for all your help so far in this journey and I’m realizing that it’s okay to be alone it really is…

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      2. Yeah no worries and no wrong way taken. Just something I noticed and that your absence solidified since it’s always me reaching out to you these days. Just felt you all of a sudden kept your distance which at some point was quite the opposite and it appeared to be linked to me saying that I’m taken.
        It’s all good and I wish you all the best in the world. And if you want to stay in touch, you will and honor my request to keep me in the loop.
        Getting ready for work, have a great weekend.

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      3. Well I’m still single and YES I want to keep in touch with you. I was given you time because I’m the kind of person that doesn’t want to seem all clingy. But I hope you have a great afternoon and please stay in touch as well with me. I will let you know more about my health this evening because the doctors are going to be talking with me. But again thank you for all you have done, and I do need you in this journey…

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