Well it will begin tonight and I mean the word I am saying is rain. We are going to be in a huge rain band until Tuesday which means I should buy some lumber and start to build and ark. I mean isn’t that what Noah did? But the problem with Noah was he knew it was going to last forty days and forty nights. I mean I am only talking like maybe 5 days total of rain, and not 40. But when you see that you wanted to get things done in the next 5 days it just not going to happen for me. And I know that tiger is saying you better not be over working yourself here crane. And to tell you the truth tiger, I am excited about getting back on the horse here and getting things done in my life that have been missing for over seven months or more here. But then again I think that the rain is coming for a reason to, and to me I think that the power of the spirit is telling me to rest by the fire and sit with the dogs and look out the window with some hot green tea, and just watch the power of mother nature and how she will work her magic on the cleansing of this world.
I know tiger your thinking maybe to yourself that I might be on to something here, and that something I am thinking is that it’s okay to take things easy for awhile. I mean I did have a lot of issues with my health, and again taking things slow is just as good as the rain coming out of the sky. Mother nature can teach me a few things about who I am as a person. And I need to listen to her at times in my life here. Sometimes it’s hard when you want to get things done here.
Okay, I didn’t know where I was going with my speech of the evening I kind of got off the topic of where I was really going this evening. But I am truly okay with that I am. I mean that is life for me these days. But in the end of this post, the rain is still coming and I need to take things easy this weekend. And let me tell that it is harder to be patience with my crane spirit. I want to fly again, and I know that my wings are broken yet, and they are healing, but I have great people in my life telling me to push forward in everything we do. And when things get the hardest it’s okay to take things easy as in having that cup of warm tea and looking out the window and telling yourself that your life is going to be okay as this storm will pass over you.
Last note I have hit a new low of depression here in the last week more than the whole seven months of going through all of what I have gone through. It was hard to omit that I had a serious health issues this past week, and to tell you the truth I am scared, and I am not scared of what people think of me, I just want to be happy again and find that comfort in everyday things again. And lately I haven’t found any of this easy at all for me. I mean that is why I want to work hard again to take my mind off my depression, and when I am working I do not think of this things that have been following me around like a shadow. I know that I have the strength to getting over this depression, it’s just when is that question I have to ask myself. Just like the rain coming these next few days. I really don’t want it to come, but it is good for the rain to be coming because even when mother nature cries she knows that the answers come out in the tears of the rain.
And maybe, that is what I need to do is just cry this weekend, maybe that is what I need to do is follow mother natures advise with this rain as she is crying to pouring out her heart to this world. I need to just listen to the rain and find that peace that I have been truly looking for in the end. So with all these feelings in my soul, I am so sorry that this post was all over the place this evening. But I had to bleed these feelings out for myself. And sorry if this doesn’t make any sense to anyone out there. I found some relief in doing this. And tiger I am glad your still hanging in there for me in this rough time. This crane can’t thank the love and the words that you have shown for me. With this said, may you find what your looking for in the rain, because you never know what the drops just might be telling you in the end. Take care and many blessings…