Cloudy day again in many ways…

Well another round of rain and snow to be hitting the area later today. I know that I always talk a little bit about the weather, and that reason is because the four seasons are just as important as the animal spirits around you at this time. The animal spirits need all four seasons to survive as well. But today was a very hard day for me in so many ways. I mean I lost a great friend in my life, and she was a very great person to me in the 15 plus years that I have known her. Death is a really hard thing to get your head around, and I don’t care at what age you are, everyone just handles death so differently. I mean I am so numb at this time, and I don’t really know why I am so numb to be honest with you. I mean I should be showing more emotions and I just can’t at this time. And there are times in my life that I wish I had a person in it that I could sit with and have coffee or tea and just talk about what happens in my life. But I am still okay with that, I know that God has a plan for me at some point in my life. It’s sometimes really hard to sit and wait for his plans to unfold at times.

But, then my daughter comes to me in the times of trouble and asks me about simple things that are going on in her big life. And at the time I wasn’t wanted to hear about the things of my daughters life. But then it dawn on me about what she was talking about, and she was talking about a friend that she played with on the playground and she got sick and had to go to the ER. And I asked her how she was feeling about it, and she looked at me and she said that she felt bad and sad about it. And I asked her do you want to talk more about it, and she looked at me again, and told me that she told me this story because I needed to know that I wasn’t the only one that was hurting at this time of your life. And I didn’t know what to think or say, and my daughter also said to me that we have to pray when it’s the hardest to pray. And I remember always telling her this from time to time. And it just surprises me that she remembers all these little talks we had.

It’s okay to feel the feelings of what your going through, but you have to remember that life does move on and the sooner you find peace at what going on in your heart, the better you are going to be for everyone else. And my daughter needed me that afternoon, and I needed my daughter for that matter too. I realized that I am not the only one that can feel this way. The whole world is feeling a pain from something. I mean my daughter, I could I not love her for her unconditional love for me. And I am proud that she is where she is in this life.

See who ever thought that a coyote and a crane would be on that path at the same time. I mean coyotes are an animal that shows a lot of compassion in the times of trouble in someone else life. And this crane learned a lot more respect to what the coyote was teaching me this day. It’s okay crane to feel all the pain you need to feel, but in the end I need you on this path with you. For you have things to teach me yet, and I have so much to offer to you as well. I find these stories of my life so amazing. Who would of thought that many years later that my daughter would be that coyote. I mean I never thought less of her, but she taking on an animal that has something to say to this world, and I could not be any prouder of her then I am now.

So in closing, today is about me just getting my head wrapped around the news at this time. But more importantly it is still living life at the same time here in the end. That coyote spirit needs me more than anything in this world, and one thing is that this crane is going to be flying away soon. Until then take care of each other and learn to look for them small miracles in your day. You never know what will show up if you believe…

5 thoughts on “Cloudy day again in many ways…

  1. I am very sorry for your loss today and you I’m sending you a tight warm hug. You are right death is hard and so final. You can never prepare for it and it always hits hard at no matter what age. It often brings unfairness while leaving behind questions that will never be answered and we are left without understanding and the big word “why”.
    A wise crane ones told me that people never really die and that they continue to walk amongst us. I have thought about this many times and sometimes I help a stranger and wonder if I have helped the spirit and the soul of my Dad without knowing. It goes back to my post about being human and making a difference. I hope your heart finds comfort in the words of your wise little coyote and she is right. We all feel pain and we all experience the not so fun things that break us and leave us incomplete. It’s ok to grief and to hurt but remember your own words after my heart as it is not a matter how many times we fall, but rather how many times we rise, get up and fly again. I’m not saying to forget, you will always remember and it’s ok to shed a tear from time to time, but you are not done with your mission here. People need you in their lives and you are not flying anywhere, just yet.
    I’m sorry for your loss my friend. Hugs

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    1. Well first thank you for your warm hugs. And I wanted to tell you like my little coyote your right about no matter what we have to keep moving on. There is no choice in this matter, and sometimes it hard to move, but then again it’s the spirit of you tiger and that spirit of my little coyote that keeps things moving forward for me. Master always did say that death was the beginning to something even bigger then what we experiences in our life time. And it can only get better where we go after this. That is where your faith comes in Master always said. I never forgot those words as he was dying from cancer many years ago. But thank you again my tiger for checking in and saying them words to me. Many hugs from this feathered friend…

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