Time for healing…

Well off to another Saturday and the rain and storms are moving back into the area. I wanted to reach out and talk a little bit about what my next steps are for getting more treatment down for my pancreas and heart. I made some calls to the doctors that I was working with, and I am going to be setting up appointments for my pancreas and heart in the coming weeks. I know that you don’t get in fast enough is the problem due to everyone that is ahead of you in this process. I am trying to keep myself out of the ER in the coming days to weeks. I am on a special diet now that I put myself on and I am going to have some help with this diet with my tiger spirit as well. I know that I have to change this now before something worse can happen.

I got back on all my natural stuff. Things like taking a list of stuff that includes, corn silk, lobelia, horse chestnut, eyebright, damiana, fennel, hydrangea, cranberry, juniper, fenugreek, alfalfa, barley grass, and to many more to name here. But I also been taking my apple cider vinegar in the morning, as a shot in the evening as well. So there are other things that I am doing as well. I am going to be talking slow walks with my dogs and with my little coyote as well. Nothing is going to be fasted paced for me anymore. I woke up and realized that my health is the number one thing over my work at this time. I will be cutting back my hours at work too, for I am the owner and I do have people that work for me, that I will let them try to run things the way they see fit, until I can return to 100 percent here. These are big changes in my life. But I have to do this or I will die I think by the end of this year. Even the doctors have said this to me if I don’t slow down that I could pay for this or even die as well.

I know that I am going to have help with this journey. I reached out to a few close friends that mean the most to me, and one of them is telling me to go the distance in this and that it will be hard and embrace them struggles as they come. My one friend that I look to is that dragon spirit. For he has know me the longest it seems here. But the point being my dragon spirit had two rules for me, and the first one is to take time for myself, like going for them walks, and spend as much time with that little coyote, because that little coyote needs me more than anything. And she wants to be part of this healing process. I couldn’t agree anymore on that I told my dragon spirit. Last thing my dragon spirit wanted me to do, is to continue to write in this blog. He told me do not stop at all with this blog. People are looking at this, and who knows you might be saving a life or two with this in the sense of that your struggles are not all yours. That others have struggles too in there lives, and that if they read your story on how you got over this in the past few months or even a year or two, that in the end that there is hope. So do not stop this blog was his second rule for me. And I told that dragon spirit that I will respect that for sure.

Then the other person is this journey for healing is my tiger spirit. See I want to tell you about this tiger, she came into my life out of the blue people would say to me, but then again I believe she came her for a reason, that her blog was the first one that came across my page for a reason. And that was to be a great spirit for me in the sense of being there to help me see things in a different light. I know that we never met, and that isn’t the important part of this journey, the most important part is that she is there always in my body mind and soul. This tiger spirit told me this is going to be a hard road, but this crane doesn’t have to do this alone. For there are the spirit animals in every direction that want to see you get better in the end. The hardest part is that I am going to be even more open with my feelings with this tiger, which is going to be so very hard for me. The reason it will be hard is because I haven’t opened up in over 5 years to anyone after the lost of a few closest friends that I ever knew. And I told myself that I was closing off my heart for good, and now I am going to have to open this heart for the first time in years and learn how to trust tiger in this healing process.

So, in the end this is my healing process, and I could of gone on and on for hours about these two spirits friends. But, I look forward to seeing in the coming days to weeks where this journey is really going to go. Thank you both for being in my life at this time. And it’s time to just a a second for me to get my thoughts together today. And the first thing for me is to do is go work some simple katas of all the spirit animals that are always with me. And that is going to be a simple workout with the dragon and the tiger and the panther and the snake and that crane as well. Take care of each other and yourself…

 

This is the path I am sharing this evening and it’s a special path indeed…

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This is a very special painting of two special people on this trail that we call life. And to me I want to share this painting because it reminds me of what I am going through at this very moment in my life. If you look at the crane he is above the tiger and to the right of him in that sky. And as you look into the tigers eyes you see a passion that the tiger is carrying with her. And the crane knows that he is in trouble if he doesn’t start to listen to his closest friend on the path. As you look at the crane face there is not expressions on it. For that reminds me of myself at times. So, in closing this very short post, what do you see in this painting? Do you see an angry tiger? Or do you see a tiger trying to help a friend in need? This painting I did not draw or can’t or won’t take any credit for. But it has been used in our style for many years in the sense of a healing tool. Master had many stories that came from this painting, and he had a very good quote to this painting as well. And I will never forget this quote for it was used everyday in our dojo. And Master would of said that this painting means, “You are what you are, in the darkest corner in the darkest room of your life.” If you can figure out what Master was seeing in this painting to come up with a quote like that please share your thoughts with me on this as well. For all of us that have studied under Master to this day have no clue what he really seen and meant in this.

I wanted to share this with my tiger spirit tonight, for I found this an important piece to share in the sense that she has been through a lot like myself, and I know that I want her to know that I am going to get through this mess one way shape or form here. Enjoy this story my spiritual tiger, and I look forward to hearing your thoughts on this for sure when you get that time away. And know that I am on your path as well. There is purpose for all we do in our life, and we sometimes have to stop and pause and realize that we have each other in the end no matter what happens. May God be with all that read this, and be good to yourself and the others around you…