Rain storm…

Well back to the doctors office in an hour to see where things are with my situation with my pancreas. I woke up to a rain storm this morning and as I was watching the rain come down I was thinking to myself how nice it really is to see a slow rain come down. The storms we usually get are really bad lately with a lot of wind and hail and damage winds. But to see a nice slow rain storm was really nice for a change. I know that your wondering why I am talking about a rain storm. But again to me it is about the simple things in my life that are getting me by at this time. I mean I really don’t want to go to the doctors office again today. I am so tired of being in them places, but again there is no choice, I have to want to live, and for that to happen I must say on this journey ahead of me. I know that the road isn’t easy, and I know that, but I have to keep moving in the end of things here.

Well, I just wanted to drop off this simple message today, and again hope to write more when I am feeling better at some point. The last note I have is that make sure you tell yourself never to give up on anything your doing in your life. Don’t take no from anyone, and the people that have told you no in your life never had the power to say, yes! Just remember that if there is anything I can teach you from reading my story. If there is a will there is always a way in the end. But until then take care of yourself and each other around you…

Archie, and the red ball…

Well another day on this blog, and that means another post of what the heck is going on in my life lately. Well today I went into the clinic to learn about the treatment options that are going to happen to me starting this weekend and next week. The first thing you learn in that your going to get sicker for before better, and you think to yourself for a minute that you come here to get better not sicker. But then again, that is what happens with medicine. And that is a very hard thing to understand when you never been through something like this. I mean who would of thought that again that you have to get sicker before better. But anyways, then your learn on top of it that maybe that your not going to get better for awhile after this as well. Everyone body does something different that the next persons. But sitting there I was listening and on the other hand I was watching the child playing in the hallway out side my room, and I was wondering what was running through this child head as it was playing with a red ball. I mean that child was born into this world as innocent as you possibly could be.

But as I was watching the child, I said a prayer that this child will never go through what I am going through at this time. I didn’t even know this child and I wish and prayed for a blessing for this young kid. But the point of all of that was to run from my issues at hand. I look at that child and I seen life running through it’s veins, and I look at my life and I might see the lights going off soon if this doesn’t work in the end. But no matter what you keep telling yourself that no matter what is how are you going to keep this light shinning in the question. But time will tell that is all I can say about this.

But after the visit I went home and just tried to relax for awhile. As I was relaxing my dog Archie the Newfoundland came and laid on my shoulder. And I think that was a message to tell me that it’s going to be really okay. And Archie is 6 months old and weighs now 80 plus pounds, and Archie is on his way of hitting 200 pounds plus. But I wanted to share this image of Archie to the world, because dogs do know you better than you think in the end. But I will leave this post short for I am needing some rest. But know that tomorrow is another day and be good to yourself and the others around you…

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