Well, this marks the third day that I am here on this blog, and to me that is a true miracle in a lot of ways. I am surviving first off that means and then to me it means that I have a lot of great hope for this year. Hard to believe we are at the 10th day of the year already. I never seen 10 days go that fast ever in my life. And when I look back at them 10 days I realized one thing, that I got 10 days more then most people. I was thinking about how many people are going to die today or this evening. Do you ever really think about that question? I mean I never thought I would be at this part of my life to start thinking things like this. But there is no guarantees on your life. And the worse part is that you never think of them guarantees until something happens.
I been in and out of the hospital suffering with major health issues at hands with my pancreas and my liver. No I am not a smoker or a drinker, for I have never been drunk in my life, and for the record I have never taken any drugs either. But when you are in the hospital and you see the suffering, I never take any of that for granted. There are people that are going to loose loved ones, and there is going to be big changes after that. And as I sit in them hospitals like I was doing and seeing this it was teaching me that I am not a superman like I thought I was 20 years ago.
But these last 10 days have been a true miracle for me that I could get up and see another day. And yes, some of these days have been really hard for me in ways I can’t even begin to telling you. But I still have my life, and I have that time to making a difference in mine and to the people out there that are suffering. If someone would ever tell you that they are NOT suffering then they are lying to you. There is no way around that your going to die, it’s just how and when in the end. But suffering brings out a lot of great things as well. Sometimes we have to get to them points of our life to seeing how great things really where.
And to me that is why I am taking the time to reflect these things, and I know there are a lot of people in the world that carry on thinking nothing will happen to them. Believe me I used to be that person. But not anymore, in fact I like to go out when I feel good and talk to people and see what is going on in there life, to me there is no better gift then giving your time to someone else. You can not put a price tag on that. So I will end this saying I wonder where the next 10 days will take me in my journey and I have to tell myself in these next days to go out and to continue to making that difference with myself and the others around me. Until next time, be good to yourself and the others around you…