A great story with a great message…

Here is something I wanted to share to the people that are following me on my blog. I studied the martial arts for over 30 years and I want to share this story. My master was so special to me in the ways that I can’t even begin to tell you. He saved me when I was growing up in some pretty rough times. But I will share that story sometime down the road with you. But here is a story that makes me think about what he would say. Enjoy this short story. I will have more to say about this after you read this.

“Taken! Save me!” Takezo cry for help was loud and plaintive. The branch began to tremble, as though it, as though the whole tree, were weeping. “I want to be a better person. I realize now how important it is, what a privilege it is to be born human. I’m almost dead, but I understand what it means to be alive. And now that I know, my whole life will consist of being tied to this tree! I can’t undo what I’ve done.”

“Your finally coming to your senses. For the first time in your life, your talking like a human being.”

“I don’t want to die,” Takezo cried. “I want to live. I want to go out, try again, do everything right this time.” His body convulsed with his sobbing. “Takuan… please! Help me… help me!”

The monk shook his head. “Sorry Takezo. It is out of my hands. It’s the law of nature. You can’t do things over again. That’s life. Everything in it is for keeps. Everything! You can’t put your head back after the enemy’s cut it off. That’s the way it is. Of coarse, I feel sorry for you, but I can’t undo the rope, because it wasn’t me who tied it. It was you. All I can do is give you some advice. Face death bravely and quietly. Say a prayer and hope someone bothers to listen. And for the sake of your ancestors, Takezo, have the decency to die with a peaceful look on your face!”

The clatter of Takuan’s sandals faded into the distance. He was gone, and Takezo cried out no more. Following the spirit of the monk’s advice, he shut the eyes that had just experienced a great awakening and forgot everything. He forgot about living and about dying, and under the myriad tiny starts lay perfectly still as the night breeze sighed through the tree. He was cold, very cold.

I think the best part of this story was, “of coarse I feel sorry for you, but I can’t undo the rope, because it wasn’t me that tied it, It was you.”

Nothing more powerful then a great story from time to time from some of the wisest people on the planet. With this said have a great day or evening and remember to always take care of yourself before you can take care of others….

Fighting the fight…

Well, I was sitting here at my office and looking out the window like I normally do, and I was looking at the snow as it was melting off the roofs and the trees. And I just was thinking about life and that there sure is a lot going on with myself and the people around me lately. And I was thinking that there is a lot of pain and suffering going on, and I was pawning my ideas and then I thought about what pain and suffering can really teach you. I mean with out pain you would never understand the good things in your life. Without pain you would have no clue to how things really work for yourself or the people around you. Pain is a blessing, and yet at the same time it can be a curse to the people that want to focus on it all the time and live in it. I mean we are all human, and it is easy to getting yourself stuck in them places. There is nothing fun about pain. But I think that pain teaches us something that no matter what it does pass, and that better is coming. And them are the lessons you want to hang on too when it is all said and done. I mean I know that it does get the best of me, and it does bring me down to levels that I don’t like to be in, but then when you start to climb out of the hole you see that it was really not all to bad.

I would have to say that there is nothing easy about waking up for me without some kind of pain mentally and physically I mean nothing easy. Sometimes I wake and I have the physical pain, and then there are mornings I get up and I have the mental pain. I realize that with my disease that I am going through with my liver and pancreas there has not been a day without pain and suffering. There has not been a day without the physical side going that I am going to have to suck it up and push hard through it. Then the mental pain jumps in and goes how much more can I do this, and God where are you and when are you going to make this go away from me. I mean I do think of these things and there is nothing easy to think about any of this to be completely honest with you. But there is that part that comes into my mind that goes this is going to be okay, and that makes no sense when your not feeling well, but it creeps in and goes lets push through this stuff. And I can’t thank my brain for telling me to push like it does.

Here is another thing is that when your going through all of this, it really feels like your on your own, and even though you have friends and family it just feels like no one can understand what your going through, but then you wake up and realize that there are tons of people dealing with what your going and you pick your big boy pants up and keeping pushing harder then you did before. I know one thing for sure is that we are all going to die at some point. And when you think about that you start to change the things you have control over. I mean I never would think at my age that I am at that I would be talking about death, but I bring it up because like I said to an friend here a few days ago, the better you understand death the better your life becomes at that very moment. You realize what the important things are and you make them adjustments.

I mean I never thought that it would take a disease like this for me to realize all of this stuff. I mean I was in the Army many years ago and I never thought about death like I do now. It funny how a life change like mine makes you think about these things. I mean growing up as a boy at a young age I was running in the fields and never thinking anything like death was going to happen, I was young and running as fast as I could and life was not so bad. But when you get older things start to change in your life and you sit like I am here and look out the window and you start to reflect on the things that you have full control over, and to me is that I know that I have no control over death, and I am good about that actually, because that means I am living my life with the best things I have at this time. And them things are my family and my closest friends.

In closing this post, I never thought that I would be back on this blog. I mean I find it helpful to writing my thoughts down, and even though they might not make sense, I really guess I don’t care, because at least one thing I know is that I am living my days to the fullest, and I really don’t care about the negative things out there that want to hurt me. I will continue to focus on the things I do have control over and that is fighting this disease off, and hope for a better recovery soon with this pancreatic disease. But with this said take care of yourself and then take care of the people around you…

Hanging out with my sister…

Well I found out that my blood sugar is really low and that is been a problem for quite some time I am like in my lower 40’s for levels and normal range would be around 110 or a little bit better then that. But at least I know what going on with the pancreas as far as the way it is acting up. But I will take that news and keep moving forward like I have been. With that said I spend the afternoon with my sister. We went into town and did some shopping which is really strange to me in the sense that I barley ever go out due to what I feel and to be honest I am not really in the mood to standing in lines waiting to check out.

But having my sister today was a lot of fun, I mean the sun was shinning and I had fun with her we had a lot of laughs and to me it was a great thing. I mean tomorrow I will be with her again as we go to town for some more shopping we need to do. But the amazing part is my sister and her will. I mean she graduated this past year from a college in New York and she has no idea how proud I really am of her. I mean I wish I could tell her how proud I am, but I always have a hard time getting the words out of my mouth. For some reason that seems weird but I hope one day soon I can tell her them words. I mean she has a great future ahead of her, and to me that is all I can say about her. I mean I can one last thing is that she has a great spirit in her, I mean that is an important thing, and I know that I am blessed having her as my sister.

I wanted to end this post by saying that my attitude has been getting better as the days go on I am working on getting better and most importantly I am staying strong with my mind. When you go through the darkness sometimes it is really hard to seeing that light. I mean everybody is going through a lot of things in there lives at this very moment. And like I said to the friends I have out there, that there are going to be people dying tonight, and how amazing I was to survive another day knowing that someone is not going to get through the rest of the week. So with that said have a great evening, and take care of yourself and the people around you…

A spirit of a dog…

Well it stopped snowing out for the meantime and the weather is changing a little bit for the better let me tell you. The temps are above freezing and hope that we can stay out of that pattern for quite some time. But anyways, what is new about today well I can tell you that I am alive to see the sun shinning, and I been busy taking the puppy for a walk, and let me tell you he is lazy as a puppy. But having a dog been a really good thing for me and my depression with what has been going on for quite some time. Having a dog means you have to take care of it, and the funny thing I think it is actually working both ways here. I think that he is taken care of me as well.

Every time I see him his tail is wagging so fast that I think it is going to fall off due to that wagging of that tail. But he is always happy to greet me when I get back home and he likes to play in the snow a lot as well. But I will share a image of him in a minute here. I know your thinking what did you name him, well I named him Spirit. And for the reasons that he has a strong spirit to knowing what is going on in my heart.

Spirit was a rescued puppy from the pound, and there is nothing better then a rescued dog let me tell you. But in closing I will show you an amazing image to me how lazy he is can be, and to me that is a sign to just slow down and appreciate the life ahead of us all…

 

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Snow and more snow…

Well did we get the snow in the last 24 hours here, and I mean it is pilling up to maybe a total of 10 inches of new snow, and to be completely honest this is really been our first major snow of the year, and we are half way done with January here which is even crazier then the snow coming down. But we need some snow here to cover the ground and if you live in the country like I do the snow is needed to shield a lot of things, like for instance that we need to stop freezing the septic tanks in our back yards. See, with no snow the frost is getting deeper and deeper into the ground like around where I am living the frost is like over 28 inches deep and the septic tank pipe are not that far into the ground actually. So we are getting to them points that we need the snow so that we can flush our toilets with no issues.

Another reason for the snow is for the farmers around here, they need it for the spring crops and other things as to watering the livestock as well. Levels around my area have been super low due to the dryness in the air lately. So in the end we really welcome the snow and that is been a big blessings to us people living in the country.

Other news is that I am alive and that I am trying to get my attitude where it needs to be for this year, and I am still having a hard time with that attitude adjustment let me tell you. But I will figure this problem out and I will continue the fight and to keep moving forward. I mean at the end of the day that is all we can do for now, all we can ask from each other is to try, and to me that is all I can do is to continue to try.

So at end of this post, I hope that everyone is having a great day, and I wanted to close by saying take the time today to think about what matters the most to you at this time. And with that said be good to yourself and the others around you…

Thinking outside the box…

Well off to another week ahead of us, and it is hard to believe that again half the month is over with and I sit here at my desk and tell myself where is really all this time going. To me it has been a very cold start to this month, and let me tell you with me suffering and going through my issues and then to find out others have there issues have been a big part of what has been in my heart. I know that I am not the only one here suffering at this time the world is full of it, but this year has been plagued with it from my family to my closest friends. Just doesn’t seem right to me here when I think about things lately. But no one said that life was going to be easy right? I mean there is nothing easy about it that is for sure.

But with the other news of what is going on my father got injured this weekend and took a really bad fall and I look at him at 68 years old going that he is doing pretty well for taken care of himself. I know that I am 25 years behind him and I know that the older you get the harder it is to recover, I mean he fell on his side landing on his arm and push his rib cage into his stomach area. Which caused a lot of pain for him. I see him sitting in the chair in the house and I am just thinking about that in another 10 to 15 years that is where my father will be that life is going to even slow him down even more then what he is going through at this time. I have a hard time thinking that my father life is going by and to see the injury really teaches you to really appreciate the days ahead of you.

I know that my closest friend has the same issues going on with her mother and let me tell you that when your friends are suffering because of your parents that is a really hard thing to take in let me tell you. Parents bring you into the world, and it is are job as children to make sure that we have that time with them and then to prepare them for the afterlife. I am a very spiritual person and my father is very spiritual as well, and to tell you the truth seeing him like I did in the last 48 hours is hard. And that reason is because you look down the road and think about what I just said here and that is to prepare them for the afterlife. I don’t think to many people think like I do, and to tell you the truth I do think outside the box at all times, and that reason is because it makes me think that how goof my life is when you think outside that box.

But in closing this post for the evening, I am wishing who ever reads this blog of this post, that you take care of yourself and always think ahead about the people around you that matter the most to you. I mean there is 24 hours in a day, but who says that your guaranteed another 24 hours right? With that said be good to yourself and the others around you…

It’s almost midnight already…

Well it is almost midnight coming here for me and I wanted to come here and make a short post about that tomorrow is coming soon like in 15 minutes here for me and I have to realize on thing and that is I can not carry my life on my shoulders anymore. And I will let you think about what I said here and think about what that really means to you. Master used to teach us that in the art, and when things were getting rough or tuff in your life he used to always say do not carry your life on your shoulders.

So, I will leave you with this simple post and see what anyone is going to teach me on this quote that was giving to me many years ago. With that said be good to each other and the people around you…