Storms are coming…

Well we are in it for another bad storm today it is hard to say what is really going to happen with the weather in the sense of what it is going to do. I mean we are in for a ice storm that could bring and inch of ice to the area which would not be good due to the power lines getting to much ice on them and then we could loose power due to the weight on the lines from the ice. Then after that we could get anywhere from 2 to 4 inches of fresh snow which again means with the ice on the roadways that it will be impossible to drive around due to the road conditions. Then after the snow storm passes through then it goes to rain and thunderstorms so that means the snow will get really bad and the ice under neath the snow will just make things really bad this afternoon into the evening hours. This storm is all going to pack these things in a 6 to 8 hour period started within the hour and at least going through the midnight hours, and then the worst part then there is going to be a warm front and being warm is not the problem it is the winds that are suppose to get to 40 to 50mph as well. So what a day in the weather department here where I am from in Wisconsin. But, the main thing is that I will be inside working hard at my desk and looking out the window as it is coming down this evening. But I feel like Mother Nature is a little confused today that she seems like she wants to have a bad day as well. I mean everyone is entitled to a bad day once in awhile here.

On to other news other then the weather and that is I wanted to tell you that I am out from being sad, I am trying my hardest to maintain a sense of being happy and moving forward in anyway I can. I know one thing is that life has been throwing us a lot this week at least on my side of things. But I told myself that I am going to pick up and dust myself off and keep pushing forward that better is coming. And I am going to hang on to my words and push for better things. I know that it is hard the way I am feeling lately and I mean there is a lot in my head to what I am feeling about things, but I have to tell myself that first that I am going to be okay and secondly that no matter what happens at the end of the day that I am going to make it. I have told myself this in the past and it has helped me in my time of needs here. But I will do everything I can to make things work out in the end. Mother nature can be mad and frustrated and that is telling me that even I am not alone in my thoughts that others in this world are suffering as well. And I have to keep that in mind that I am not the only one going through all this that I know that there is always light at the end of the tunnel here that I will focus my life to the lighter things. There is a choice that we all can make in a day and that choice is how we are going to make our attitudes a little bit better then from the day before and I truly believe it is in our attitude that we can make that difference in ourselves and the others around us. I know another thing is that where I am in this very moment of life that there is a reason for this, and it is not for me to question my reasons or my purpose for it. I have to fight to work my way out of it and make that difference in a different way so that I can survive in this world.

No one said it was ever going to be easy no one. And I have said this from time to time in my posts. Maybe I write that sentence down for a reason, to remind me that life is not easy and yet on the other hand to remind the people that care for me in this blog to realize that as well. I know in the end we are all in this together one way shape or form, the question is how to we come together in a time of need when it comes to helping that person getting out of their darkness? I mean we all have life to live and it is hard to stop what your doing to check on someone else when your life has the issues in it as well. But on the other hand we need to change that attitude and stop what we are doing and go help the person in need. And that doesn’t mean it will take money or other things to helping that person it means that we help them with the time we truly give to them in the end. There is no money on time, and the sooner that you understand that the better your life becomes in the sense that your doing what the powers above are telling you to do, and that is to care for another person in this world that needs to be cared for.

So in the end of this post, I wanted to say to hang in there and realize that your not alone like you think you are. And if your feeling down and out about life realize one thing that people in the end do care, it is just if you feel that you can reach out and go make that difference for that person and that if you want to take the time out of your life to doing such a thing. But just remember again we are all in this together and with that said be good to yourself today, and always be good to the people around you.

Confused and just lonely…

Well I am going to write about a issue that I been dealing with for quite some time and that is the issue of being so lonely in my heart. And to me I want to bring this up because lately things have been really lonely in my life. And nothing makes sense when your alone with your thoughts because you start to think of things that are not true in your mind. Like for example I know that I am going to be okay and yet in my mind it does not feel that way at all. I mean I can be in a room full of family and friends and it still feels like this to me that I am the only one in the room even though it is full I feel trapped inside and I don’t know why that makes me feel so alone and sad. I know one thing is that I am sure that this is just what happens once in awhile when things just don’t as you thought that they would. I know one thing is that I will pull from this darkness and I know I will, but once I do pull away from that darkness I do not want to come back to this point ever again. And I am going to work on that. I am. Just need to figure out what triggers the things in my own mind, and that is the hardest part of this whole journey is that I need to figure out what my emotions are doing for me in the sense of thinking right lately. I know that even when I look at my blog and my posts that a lot of things I write make no sense to me as well. But I am trying to do what is right by letting my feelings out of my heart to the posts that I am writing.

So where do I go from here? I mean I need to find the peace in heart and I need to do this soon and I don’t want to be forcing myself off this blog because of this issue. But in the end I will carry on somehow and I will see what tomorrow brings as in what I will do about my confused soul. I want to be happy and I want things to be normal again the best way they can be for me. But I will sit and pray and tell myself that I will win over this troubled mind of thinking I have to keep feeling this way. But until then take care and maybe I will write another quick post later this evening. Be good to the people around and many blessings…

Faith is the only tool you need.

Well off to another post and what I want to share with you with the little words I right in these posts are this, that you have to have the faith in everything you do! I mean there are a lot of people that are struggling lately with a lot of issues in there life. And a lot of that has to deal with the lack of faith. I know there are people that will read this and tell me that it is not all about faith but in the end no matter how you look at it or tell me you come to the same answer in the end and that is faith. Why am I bringing this up today in this post. Well I will tell you my story for what it is worth to you and I want to tell you that what happened today was an act of faith. And what happened to me is that I had a huge eye opener when it came to talking to a individual today about his life and he was sharing with me how bad it is and how nothing is working his way. So I asked him where his faith was to getting through all the stuff he had going on and he answered to me that faith does not work and that I am not going to church for the faith speech that is why he left it he did not want to hear the truth about to who he really is. I am not a bible beater of a church going man myself lately but I realized that all his problems were because he was lacking the faith and spirit to getting him through his storm. And the longer he was talking I made a conclusion that his life is actually better then he gives himself credit for and to me that made me think about myself as well. This man has enough money he has a great family with a beautiful wife and children and he has a great job and has all new cars and other things. I mean this man has lived the American dream here and yet even when he has it all together he really doesn’t because his faith is so weak that he is not going to finish his life if he can’t get the pieces that will make his faith strong again.

I know that I can not push him into anything that he does not want to do. And I know that his life is full of blessings and how am I going to change this with the power that I have inside myself and I really don’t have a clue to that but then it hit me and I know one thing I was sharing with him was my health scare and he did not know about this scare that I was dealing with and to him it really opened his eyes to himself that he is not going to live forever and that he should take the time to figuring out what is important to him and we talked for over three hours and we made a lot of good waves in the end of our time together and he realized that faith is the answer to everything but you have to really commit to faith and not use it when you want to and not. There are a lot of people like this in this world and I mean when things are bad you want to run to your faith and then when things are better or even better then good you tend to throw your faith to the side of the road, and to me that is the hardest part of having a strong faith. I learned that you can not turn it on and off like a light switch. Faith does not work like that at all. Faith wraps itself around you like a warm blanket and shields you from the things that are bad in your life and you need to remember that faith is like a blanket and it really works if you let the faith enter your heart.

So in closing you need to know that faith is all around you and that if you believe in it that nothing will ever stop you in your life. So I have to realize that when things are hard and believe there is nothing easy about life that I have that tool in my pocket and that is my faith in myself and that things will straighten out. But with that said you take care of yourself and then take care of the people that need it the most and until next time many blessings to you…

A rough day…

I wanted to take the time to write about what I learned today and what I learned from today is that no matter how things get in your life to keep pushing forward and do not look back for all you have is today and that is all you need to know. I learned today that I lost a few friends and I was sad about the news of these friends. I was thinking about that it was sad in the way that I never made the time for them, that life got so busy on my end of things that I never got that chance to see them before they departed this earth. I know that life can do things to us when we least expect that and life has a way of teaching us lessons that we need to prepare for. And what those lessons are who knows in the sense because we can not ever figure out the plans that are laid before us. I was thinking that with my health scare at the moment that I am praying for that miracle of getting better this year. I know this has been the longest road I have ever been on and everyday is a problem to me because I can not eat right or do normal things that most normal people can do. If I would do the normal things there is a great possibility of death due to the nature of what I am going through here. But I am not going to focus on my health I am going to focus on the things that matter the most to me in my life. And that is my family and few friends that I have left. And to me that is the most important thing I have to live for.

So, today was a lesson in the sense that I have to make more time for people in the sense of what am I going to do with myself that will allow that time to happen for me. I know one thing for sure is coming here and seeing my family here is really important part for me and it is nice to see comments from people that actually care. And let me tell you that truly makes the difference in what I feel and do for the day. I mean I love when I get a message on my phone or computer that someone left me a comment. I mean it always makes me smile because that is truly a good friend. I mean to take the time out of your day to write me is priceless. And to read what I have down here in my post and me showing my feelings on this blog is even a greater feeling of hope. I mean sometimes in the end hope is all we really have left. And it is hanging on to that hope that gets you through your days. And to me there is no better way of living your life to know that people around you care. I mean that is truly what is all about in the end here is to live a life that is full of wonder and that you can be part of a family that truly cares about you.

So, even when the day is rough and it was rough and you loose some close friends it is nice to know that you have friends that care on this blog as well. I mean nothing is a better feeling to know that I can come here and throw myself a post and have people actually that care. But in closing I wanted to share a little information about my health and give you an update to what been going on, and latest news is that I am still loosing weight and that my food intake is smaller then it was last month that everything I do eat either comes out through the top or the bottom of me that my body is not processing food it treats it as a foreign thing in my body. I mean when you eat you never think about what you have to eat, but in my body I have to think about everything I throw into it for it might be my last meal if I don’t take care of the right way. ┬áBut anyways my sugar levels are low at this time and my salt intake is just as screwed up as my sugar count. But then again when the pancreas is in bad shape your body has to adapt in a different way then it normally can. But more tests are coming this month and then the doctors are going to figure the last stages out for me as far as what they can do for me. I mean I am nervous about the details but then again it is all I have left is to put my trust into the Lord and these doctors that they can truly come up with a plan here. So that is the update and not much of an update, but I am a fighter and I will continue to live this whole thing out until I find out what the plans are truly are for me in the end here. Well take care and with that said thank you for all that read this and thank you for the support that you have given to me this far into this journey. And last be good to others and I hope your day is full of many blessings…

What a great day for living…

Well it was a big day for me today in so many ways, and I wanted to say that the talk I had with a few people just made my day that much brighter then before. It all started by going to a restaurant with a friend and we had a great time talking and drinking some water and warm tea. I can’t eat the food yet at the restaurant due to my conditions with my health. But with that said I seen an amazing old man with a story to tell today and for me I was quite taken away from his life and what he all did in it and he is still alive to tell the stories about it. The man name was Henry and he was 99 years old and he is going to celebrate the big 100th at some point this year. And I ask him what was the secret to living such a long life. And he smiled at me and pointed to his wife. He said that is the secret to find a woman and love her as it would be your last day on this Earth. And I just was taken back by that for a second thinking that he is here sharing another day with his wife and that they are alive to witness God’s plans for them. So I asked the next question how many years it been that you been together and again that warm smile came upon him and said it is going to be 77 years this year. And I said 77 years with the same woman and he told me yes and let me tell you that it has been the best 77 years of my life and why was that I asked him and he replied, that it was love that kept us alive this long.

So asking him what loved mean to him he told me that love means that you put everything in your heart to the other person that your with. Put that time in and make sure that you listen to the person your in love with and I just smiled back at him as he was telling about being in love. He told me that listening is what a woman likes, but when you put your heart into listening it even gets better. Then I asked if he had any children and he said that he had 2 children. Two daughters and that they both were killed in a car crash at the ages of 16 and 14. The oldest daughter was driving her sister home after school and a drunk driver killed the both of them. And I asked him how did you survive that experience loosing not one but both daughters. And he replied to me that I was made at God for awhile, then you realize that God did not cause the crash. The young man is the one that caused it. And when you realize that God gives you the tools for living down here the better your life becomes to you. But regardless it is still a rough road to face not for me but for my wife and the people around us.

I asked him if he served in the war, and he told me he was in the war and he was proud to serve his country and he would do it all over again if he had the chance. So, we continue to talk about life for like 2 hours and then we had to end it because I was starting not to feel good and my stomach was raising hell with me. And that is because of the medicine in my body keeping me alive. But we ended it with him asking me a few questions and the first one that he had was how old was I? And I told him that I was 42 years of age and then the next one was are you married? And I replied no I am not married anymore. And then he asked me if I had any children and I told him I had one daughter and she was 7 years old. And then he ended saying that love works and do not let the past stand in the way of what happened to you. For love will find it way to your heart again, and when tragic things happen we have to remember that there is a God and secondly go back to the first thing I said that there is God and that there is love.

Henry said I have lived a blessed life and that I can not be mad at God when it wants to take me, all I ask for God is that he takes us both. Being at 77 years together means a lot but dying together is all I can ask the good Lord. And I said that I hope that you can live for that moment that you both can finally rest together. I helped him up and helped him put his coat on and I looked into his eyes maybe for the last time as they went to pay the bill. And what a lesson in life today for me that love is the answer to everything we do in this life. I mean it is that plain and simple. So with this said I will leave you by saying make sure that your loved ones know that you love them and secondly just know that we are in this all together in the end. That death is upon us all and make sure to treat people the way you wanted to be treated. And I will close like I always do at the end of my posts that take care of yourself and take care of the others around you. And many blessings to you…

Amazing day in the sense of what we do as people!

I was reading a lot of post today from this site and I find it so amazing that what people right and share with the world. And to me that is why I do what I do here as well. I know that sometimes my post make no sense but then again do they have to make any sense at all. I mean some of the stories I read today were amazing I mean to see that people put there hearts into what they are writing is so amazing. I mean what a gift to the world that you can put your thoughts and feelings down here. I mean that takes a lot for some people to do. And the best part of this all that we are all free here to voice what needs to be voiced. But today I feel special in the sense of being part of this big family. I mean this blog to me is like being with family at all times. And then to read what people say about your posts makes me feel even better. I mean there are days when the world is not a nice place to me and then you come here and then see how loved you really are. And to me how can I put words to this. I mean this world is a big place and we all come from different parts of it and we all meet here at some point of the day to talk about our dreams or what is troubling us or that you wanted to just share an amazing photo of what you thought was important. I mean do you think for a second that I don’t see what people are posting on here. I mean I might not be good at getting back and I am working on that actually. But to see the beauty of what is truly out there is so cool.

I was reading a post today about a man and his wife traveling the world and they were sharing there thoughts and posting there pictures on there post and to me I felt if I was part of that journey. No, I was never there in some of these places but for some reason I just felt like I was there and free to see what the world had to offer. I mean so many photographs come on here in a days time. And some of these photos can touch your heart without even reading the post. But I will tell you that the world has a amazing way of getting us all together and to sharing our stories. In the end that is what we are we all are stories and I mean there is no better ways of showing the world that even if there are problems that we all are here to resolve them.

In closing this post, today was a very incredible day for me to get into people’s lives here at WordPress and to me thank you WordPress for letting this happen. What a great way of connecting to another person soul. And with that said take care of yourself this weekend and do not let the darkness stop you from enjoying what is in front of you. Live life to what it is suppose to be in your world and do not let others get in your way when it comes to living your life, and with that said, take care of yourself and then take care of the others around you. And with that said many blessings…