I learned today from my friend that life is full of wonder and it is also full of things that sometimes you don’t want to get out of bed for. And I thought that was kind of funny actually. But I learned today that my health is getting weaker and weaker as the days go on and today I learned that my body is no longer going to be able to eat food. For I hit the limits for anything more going in my throat at this time. I have to go back to the doctors and figure out what the next steps are going to be for me.
I know one thing is that my attitude is doing well at this time but my physical side of things is a little bit different for the food is just not working out anymore at this time. I know that there could be feeding tubes as a choice or maybe another surgery in the near future but I am going to be talking about this all with the doctors soon.
But lets get off my physical health here for a minute and lets talk about today in the sense of how things are really going. I had a good talk with my friend today and we talked about our life and where are we going with them. My friend and myself have been really close like for over 32 years. But the funny thing is when we talk it was like being there 32 years ago. I mean what a true friend this man has been for me over my years. I mean we seen a lot together and I mean a lot. But today we talked about getting old and what that means to us. And we talked about what we need to live behind as well. And that might seem crazy but we are all going to leave back something when we die. I always say what kind of legacy to you want to be remembered by? I mean what happens after death really no one comes back and tells us, but we like to think a bunch of things happen. I would hope that my daughter would want to remember me for the side of how I helped people in my life and that I gave everything to people that even had nothing in the end. That is how my legacy wants to be remember that I gave everything I could to the people around me.
I mean there is a lot of me that you don’t know and that is okay actually. I mean I want to remain unanimous when that time happens. But talking to my friend it just made me think about everything and that after death we all are remembered by memories that we made with others or that we are in photographs for our families to remember us by as well. But the point off this all is that we really have to remember that we are not going to live forever and that life is going to take us all. I know that you can not be prepared for death, and that is why we must make the best out of the days we have ahead of us. And for my friend of 32 years he told me that life has gone so much faster then it did when we were in our twenties, and I could not argue with that comment at all. Life seems to be moving faster and faster and that is no lie for sure. And I know that there is so much more I want to do in my life and I am thinking I need to get this health thing nipped in the but this year. I mean almost half of this month is escaping us. But I am going to do my best to staying positive and moving forward.
I know that I sound like a broken record here, but then again I am here to write this down so that I don’t forget the rules of life either. And to me that is what this is about in the end, it is about making the best of each day, and helping the people that want to be helped. And in closing it is time for me to go get my treatment, and with this said I know that this post did not make sense but know that I am here trying to give it all that I can in my life and that is all I can ask myself at the end of the day. But until then you take care of yourself and take care of the people around you as well…