Confused and just lonely…

Well I am going to write about a issue that I been dealing with for quite some time and that is the issue of being so lonely in my heart. And to me I want to bring this up because lately things have been really lonely in my life. And nothing makes sense when your alone with your thoughts because you start to think of things that are not true in your mind. Like for example I know that I am going to be okay and yet in my mind it does not feel that way at all. I mean I can be in a room full of family and friends and it still feels like this to me that I am the only one in the room even though it is full I feel trapped inside and I don’t know why that makes me feel so alone and sad. I know one thing is that I am sure that this is just what happens once in awhile when things just don’t as you thought that they would. I know one thing is that I will pull from this darkness and I know I will, but once I do pull away from that darkness I do not want to come back to this point ever again. And I am going to work on that. I am. Just need to figure out what triggers the things in my own mind, and that is the hardest part of this whole journey is that I need to figure out what my emotions are doing for me in the sense of thinking right lately. I know that even when I look at my blog and my posts that a lot of things I write make no sense to me as well. But I am trying to do what is right by letting my feelings out of my heart to the posts that I am writing.

So where do I go from here? I mean I need to find the peace in heart and I need to do this soon and I don’t want to be forcing myself off this blog because of this issue. But in the end I will carry on somehow and I will see what tomorrow brings as in what I will do about my confused soul. I want to be happy and I want things to be normal again the best way they can be for me. But I will sit and pray and tell myself that I will win over this troubled mind of thinking I have to keep feeling this way. But until then take care and maybe I will write another quick post later this evening. Be good to the people around and many blessings…