A rough day…

I wanted to take the time to write about what I learned today and what I learned from today is that no matter how things get in your life to keep pushing forward and do not look back for all you have is today and that is all you need to know. I learned today that I lost a few friends and I was sad about the news of these friends. I was thinking about that it was sad in the way that I never made the time for them, that life got so busy on my end of things that I never got that chance to see them before they departed this earth. I know that life can do things to us when we least expect that and life has a way of teaching us lessons that we need to prepare for. And what those lessons are who knows in the sense because we can not ever figure out the plans that are laid before us. I was thinking that with my health scare at the moment that I am praying for that miracle of getting better this year. I know this has been the longest road I have ever been on and everyday is a problem to me because I can not eat right or do normal things that most normal people can do. If I would do the normal things there is a great possibility of death due to the nature of what I am going through here. But I am not going to focus on my health I am going to focus on the things that matter the most to me in my life. And that is my family and few friends that I have left. And to me that is the most important thing I have to live for.

So, today was a lesson in the sense that I have to make more time for people in the sense of what am I going to do with myself that will allow that time to happen for me. I know one thing for sure is coming here and seeing my family here is really important part for me and it is nice to see comments from people that actually care. And let me tell you that truly makes the difference in what I feel and do for the day. I mean I love when I get a message on my phone or computer that someone left me a comment. I mean it always makes me smile because that is truly a good friend. I mean to take the time out of your day to write me is priceless. And to read what I have down here in my post and me showing my feelings on this blog is even a greater feeling of hope. I mean sometimes in the end hope is all we really have left. And it is hanging on to that hope that gets you through your days. And to me there is no better way of living your life to know that people around you care. I mean that is truly what is all about in the end here is to live a life that is full of wonder and that you can be part of a family that truly cares about you.

So, even when the day is rough and it was rough and you loose some close friends it is nice to know that you have friends that care on this blog as well. I mean nothing is a better feeling to know that I can come here and throw myself a post and have people actually that care. But in closing I wanted to share a little information about my health and give you an update to what been going on, and latest news is that I am still loosing weight and that my food intake is smaller then it was last month that everything I do eat either comes out through the top or the bottom of me that my body is not processing food it treats it as a foreign thing in my body. I mean when you eat you never think about what you have to eat, but in my body I have to think about everything I throw into it for it might be my last meal if I don’t take care of the right way. ┬áBut anyways my sugar levels are low at this time and my salt intake is just as screwed up as my sugar count. But then again when the pancreas is in bad shape your body has to adapt in a different way then it normally can. But more tests are coming this month and then the doctors are going to figure the last stages out for me as far as what they can do for me. I mean I am nervous about the details but then again it is all I have left is to put my trust into the Lord and these doctors that they can truly come up with a plan here. So that is the update and not much of an update, but I am a fighter and I will continue to live this whole thing out until I find out what the plans are truly are for me in the end here. Well take care and with that said thank you for all that read this and thank you for the support that you have given to me this far into this journey. And last be good to others and I hope your day is full of many blessings…

What a great day for living…

Well it was a big day for me today in so many ways, and I wanted to say that the talk I had with a few people just made my day that much brighter then before. It all started by going to a restaurant with a friend and we had a great time talking and drinking some water and warm tea. I can’t eat the food yet at the restaurant due to my conditions with my health. But with that said I seen an amazing old man with a story to tell today and for me I was quite taken away from his life and what he all did in it and he is still alive to tell the stories about it. The man name was Henry and he was 99 years old and he is going to celebrate the big 100th at some point this year. And I ask him what was the secret to living such a long life. And he smiled at me and pointed to his wife. He said that is the secret to find a woman and love her as it would be your last day on this Earth. And I just was taken back by that for a second thinking that he is here sharing another day with his wife and that they are alive to witness God’s plans for them. So I asked the next question how many years it been that you been together and again that warm smile came upon him and said it is going to be 77 years this year. And I said 77 years with the same woman and he told me yes and let me tell you that it has been the best 77 years of my life and why was that I asked him and he replied, that it was love that kept us alive this long.

So asking him what loved mean to him he told me that love means that you put everything in your heart to the other person that your with. Put that time in and make sure that you listen to the person your in love with and I just smiled back at him as he was telling about being in love. He told me that listening is what a woman likes, but when you put your heart into listening it even gets better. Then I asked if he had any children and he said that he had 2 children. Two daughters and that they both were killed in a car crash at the ages of 16 and 14. The oldest daughter was driving her sister home after school and a drunk driver killed the both of them. And I asked him how did you survive that experience loosing not one but both daughters. And he replied to me that I was made at God for awhile, then you realize that God did not cause the crash. The young man is the one that caused it. And when you realize that God gives you the tools for living down here the better your life becomes to you. But regardless it is still a rough road to face not for me but for my wife and the people around us.

I asked him if he served in the war, and he told me he was in the war and he was proud to serve his country and he would do it all over again if he had the chance. So, we continue to talk about life for like 2 hours and then we had to end it because I was starting not to feel good and my stomach was raising hell with me. And that is because of the medicine in my body keeping me alive. But we ended it with him asking me a few questions and the first one that he had was how old was I? And I told him that I was 42 years of age and then the next one was are you married? And I replied no I am not married anymore. And then he asked me if I had any children and I told him I had one daughter and she was 7 years old. And then he ended saying that love works and do not let the past stand in the way of what happened to you. For love will find it way to your heart again, and when tragic things happen we have to remember that there is a God and secondly go back to the first thing I said that there is God and that there is love.

Henry said I have lived a blessed life and that I can not be mad at God when it wants to take me, all I ask for God is that he takes us both. Being at 77 years together means a lot but dying together is all I can ask the good Lord. And I said that I hope that you can live for that moment that you both can finally rest together. I helped him up and helped him put his coat on and I looked into his eyes maybe for the last time as they went to pay the bill. And what a lesson in life today for me that love is the answer to everything we do in this life. I mean it is that plain and simple. So with this said I will leave you by saying make sure that your loved ones know that you love them and secondly just know that we are in this all together in the end. That death is upon us all and make sure to treat people the way you wanted to be treated. And I will close like I always do at the end of my posts that take care of yourself and take care of the others around you. And many blessings to you…

Amazing day in the sense of what we do as people!

I was reading a lot of post today from this site and I find it so amazing that what people right and share with the world. And to me that is why I do what I do here as well. I know that sometimes my post make no sense but then again do they have to make any sense at all. I mean some of the stories I read today were amazing I mean to see that people put there hearts into what they are writing is so amazing. I mean what a gift to the world that you can put your thoughts and feelings down here. I mean that takes a lot for some people to do. And the best part of this all that we are all free here to voice what needs to be voiced. But today I feel special in the sense of being part of this big family. I mean this blog to me is like being with family at all times. And then to read what people say about your posts makes me feel even better. I mean there are days when the world is not a nice place to me and then you come here and then see how loved you really are. And to me how can I put words to this. I mean this world is a big place and we all come from different parts of it and we all meet here at some point of the day to talk about our dreams or what is troubling us or that you wanted to just share an amazing photo of what you thought was important. I mean do you think for a second that I don’t see what people are posting on here. I mean I might not be good at getting back and I am working on that actually. But to see the beauty of what is truly out there is so cool.

I was reading a post today about a man and his wife traveling the world and they were sharing there thoughts and posting there pictures on there post and to me I felt if I was part of that journey. No, I was never there in some of these places but for some reason I just felt like I was there and free to see what the world had to offer. I mean so many photographs come on here in a days time. And some of these photos can touch your heart without even reading the post. But I will tell you that the world has a amazing way of getting us all together and to sharing our stories. In the end that is what we are we all are stories and I mean there is no better ways of showing the world that even if there are problems that we all are here to resolve them.

In closing this post, today was a very incredible day for me to get into people’s lives here at WordPress and to me thank you WordPress for letting this happen. What a great way of connecting to another person soul. And with that said take care of yourself this weekend and do not let the darkness stop you from enjoying what is in front of you. Live life to what it is suppose to be in your world and do not let others get in your way when it comes to living your life, and with that said, take care of yourself and then take care of the others around you. And with that said many blessings…

Doing something nice for others…

Well what can I say about today then yesterday? Well today was a really different day in the sense of what I did as a person. I own my business and I donated some military carburetors to a local VFW post out west. And the reason I donated these carburetors is because the veterans that have served our country needed some projects to work on. And these veterans are disabled and have a lot of issues going on with there lives at this time. I am writing about this because first off what a great thing to be doing and I mean if you can do anything do two things and the first is to go talk to a veteran and I mean you don’t have to bring up the war, but you can talk about other things that make the difference in his or her life. And secondly donate what you can and it does not have to be from a money standpoint here. I mean what I did today I did not want to be in the newspaper or on the television and I was asked if I wanted to be and I said no. That is not why I do what I do this for. I take time out of my heart to make that difference because the world is not doing this enough for the people that really need it. I mean it does not have to be a veteran either here. But the point is that time is everything to someone that never had much and you can not put a price tag on someone life.

I mean being on the phone with this gentlemen was a true honor today in the sense of what he is doing as a person as well. I mean I know the world is full of issues and things that we might never understand in the end, but do know one thing that being who you are in this time and really understanding yourself really makes that difference when it comes time to helping people. I mean I know this because I was lost in my life for quite some time, and actually I am still struggling in a lot of ways. But then again who is not struggling lately in there life. I mean even the people that have millions of dollars still struggle and I know this for a fact. There is no body that is really safe from having to deal with major or minor issues in there life. But getting back to everything I felt a sense of pride in my heart and I felt a smile inside my soul that I have not felt for some time as well. Being good to people well I will tell you that it is the best gift and it is healing me in so many ways lately that I can’t even begin to tell you.

I know the road is hard in life, and I know that it will keep knocking you down if you let it, and for me it is not about how many times it is knocking me down it is about how many times I get hit and get back up. That is what I have learned with my disease lately dealing with a bad pancreas and liver. I will not be knocked out with one punch. I will get back up and it might be hard to get up but I am not going to give up. In closing I wanted to tell you that make sure you take care of yourself and the others around you. I will be back tomorrow writing more miracles as they come in. But until then then you take care and may your life be full of blessings…

A walk into the past today…

Well we are going to be 10 days into this month and that is crazy to me because yesterday it felt like the new year just was started and now we are into the tenth day of the second month here. Just means that nothing is going to slow down in the near future here. But today was a lot of smiles for me and that is not a normal thing for me to smile, but today there were people in my journey that made me smile. And it was over the simplest things that I seen. But I have to remember that life is one big trip we are all on here. ┬áJust know that the best things happen to you when you least expect them to happen and today it was an old man that I was talking to and he was like in his 90’s actually I think he said he was 97 years old. And I met him when I was in town running around getting things done for myself. But I had some tea at this restaurant and I was just minding my own business and this man came in wearing a World War II hat and I had to ask him about his service because of what he did for me and this country. I mean talking to a Veteran in one of the best things you can do for yourself I mean these people are what kept America free in the worse times of what this world seen. And you have to remember that they sacrifice everything in the end even leaving there families and not even knowing if they were ever going to come back.

I mean I served my country as well and I never really talk about my service for that is what good men that served do. They have no reasons to share them experiences but after today I learned that maybe that it is good to share the things that you want to share from being in the military. I mean this man was a pilot in a B-25 and flew missions in the war. And he was sitting in front of me telling me the stories of leaving his family and joining the Army and he even lied about his age to serve he was 16 and there is no way you can do that anymore. But he just was telling me about his life after and why he did what he had to do. And the money he made in the war went home to his mother so that he could support her and the farm that they grew up on. Just amazing in so many ways that this man had a great life.

But in closing this story I learned that he out lived his family and that he had a son and daughter that died like 20 years before he did. So it just shows me that I have a lot to live for yet, and I have to win over this physical condition and I mean I want this so far behind me that I can’t wait for that day that I can say that I bet this crap. I look forward to the day that I can watch my daughter grow and even get married and to watch her start her own family. But first thing is getting better and then is about taken one step at a time here and watch things as they unfold. One last thing I want to say is that the man that talk to me today his name was Henry and when it was all said and done he told me to remember this, That living life is one thing, but to give back to someone that has nothing means more then anything you can do in this world. To be kind to everyone around you even if they are being mean to you. That never loose the faith in who you are as a person. And to not let people tell you that you can’t do this or that for they never had that power to change themselves. And Henry said last to me that if we never meet again, that there will be a time that you will remember me by in the sense of what I said to you and that you will apply this to your life, because there is no better gift that you can give yourself and the end of the day.

So, those where the wise words from a man that lived in time period where life was hard and then served his country and went to war, and then had a family and then to top that off that he outlived them all including his wife of 55 years. And with that said be really good to yourself this day and to make sure that you can help others when you get that chance. Take care and many blessings to you…