Confused person here…

Well another day is here and I thought that I would take a few minutes here to talk to you about my life in the sense of what has been going on here lately. And I wanted to tell you that it has been a really busy week and I know that I did not have much time to write since I been doing so much. And what I am doing is working to hard as usual and never having anytime for myself to relax. I know that my health that I should be taken it really easy at this time and I feel if I stop that I am going to die here and I don’t just want to stop what I am doing I just need to find a happy middle in everything that I am doing at this time. I know that might be a lot to ask for when it comes to myself but I know that I have to figure something out soon. I mean being happy is a really hard thing for me lately I mean I am battling off a lot of demons in my head when it comes to my health wondering if I am going to make it or not. These are the struggles that I hate to face everyday that I get up I do not like this that I am working so hard to protect what I have left and that I might not see the outcome of what I will become due to the shortness of my life lately. I mean I never thought that I would be where I am at in my life I never thought that these days would go by and yet nothing seems to change in the sense of the struggling to fighting what is right.

I know that we are in the month of March and there is time in the sense of doing things yet for my health, but I wanted to tell you that take the time in this month to reflect where you need to be as well. I know that there is a lot of things going on and that spring is really around the corner, but really take the time to understanding yourself like I am trying to do. I find it when you get off coarse sometimes it is hard to getting back on the horse to doing what needs to be done. And for me it is more then anything to refocus on my life in the sense of that I have to keep pushing forward no matter what. And that is the hardest part for me is that I have to keep pushing forward knowing that life is going to be okay and that is sometimes a very difficult thing to go through.

Well, we are three days into this month and I am looking forward to seeing how this month is going to play out and I mean I hope that we all can have a great month full of wonderful things in it. With that said take care of yourself and take care of the others around you and just know that we are all in this together everyday. And thank you for all that read my confusing posts at this time of my life. I just needed to vent a little here and tell myself to keep writing even if it doesn’t make any sense at all. But take care of yourself again and may your day be full of blessings and miracles…

4 thoughts on “Confused person here…

  1. We all get pulled off in different directions and usually they are stressful. I have had a busy few days not really achieving anything but time and effort had to be put in to eventually complete some important procedure. March is already here and time is going pretty fast. February seems to have hardly completed and we are flying into March. Take care dear friend. Blessings

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    1. My life is a big mess and I just want to find peace with it all. I just am so angry with my life and I hate that I can’t get the words out to describe my pain and my posts never make sense because of that. But at least I’m honest and can share this with you. I am not here to say that your going to fix me. I just need to pull this all together soon and after you get the worse news about your health this past weekend you really start to think different about life in the sense you have to start preparing for death. But I said enough already and you take care and I’ll get through this one way shape of form many blessings and love from me to you…

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  2. You know what I’d say. You are needed here and giving up is not an option. I know it’s easier said than done and I’m battling a lot myself, but you need to remember the people who need you in this life and you have no choice but to be strong. Love you xo


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